Friday, 29 August 2008

Ughhh

I feel so sick at the moment it's not funny, i can hardley eat anything, Stu bless him made a lovely sausage casorole this evening i had one mouthful and couldn't eat any more :(

Wednesday, 27 August 2008

Scrap Pages


I thought I'd share some scrap pages I made using photo's of the kids











Remember to click on them to see them full size.
I am still trying to work out how to make the images bigger here.
Nicki

Saturday, 23 August 2008

Awwwww Bless.....

...... Steve just txt Stu....

Baby Alex James awwww mummy and baby are doing well

Waiting.....

Stu's friend Steve & Hazel are expecting their 2nd bundle of Joy a baby boy anyday.... They have a beautiful baby girl Kaitlyn (like my Caitie but spelt diffently)

Stu has just called Steve to see how they are.. Steve broke his ankle a few weeks ago and can't walk anywhere at the moment... Steve's phone is off. which could possibly mean that Hazel is in labour or has had the baby....

Whoooohh Good luck guys.

Pregnancy Update and Scan

I wish I had some appointments lined up to start this post with but due to what happened at St Thomas' I don't now :( Except my next appointment to see Dr Hunt at St Thomas'
22nd September 30 days

Lets Start with what happened at St Thomas' : The upshot is she is not happy :( Dr Hunt my consultant has decided to increase my claxine dose from 4 to 6 the needles are twice the size now :( will try and get a pic to show you. The reason she has decided to do this is coz my babies are too small Caite was 5lb 4oz using 4 of claxine until i was approx 28 weeks Caitie decided to stop growing at 32 weeks and was born at 36 weeks, she wants me to grow a bigger baby. Georgie was only 4lb 11oz at 37 weeks without claxine and my biggest baby was Bradley born at 40+5 6lb 7 1/2oz again without the claxine. She also wants me to continue with the claxine till the end and possibly for 6 weeks after. She has also now labled me as very high risk :( when I had Caitie it took over 45 mins from the 1st cut to getting her out of me, I was told at the time this was cos I was "butchered" from Georgie's section. She told me that I had something called placenta accresha (sp) My bladder was attached to my womb, from what I have read online the last few days it's scarey and extreamly dangerous. Pipkin will be my last baby. I can't go through this again. I just want a normal pregnany and to be able to enjoy it without being scared. She is also re-booking me for St Thomas' now so I have to wait for a booking appointment with their team of midwives and ob's

When I had my booking at the local hospital the midwive told us that it was doubtful I would be allowed to go pass 38 weeks due to my history so it works out although Pipkin is due 10th April I will be 38 weeks on 27th March so it will prob be somewhere around there.

I had the follow up scan yesterday at the local hospital and saw Pipkin!! and his heartbeating away :) that made me so happy. Pipkin is mesuring right for my dates so I am now 7+1 :)


Our Pipkin - Click on photo to see full size

center>It was amazing and a relief to see pipkin on the scan stu had a silly grin on his face and was asking lots of questions bless him. The kids were fasinated by it all. Caitie now keeps asking if I'm ok and is the baby in your tummy being good mummy lol. Bradders kisses my tummy goodnight and says he can't wait to be a big brother again, as long as it's a boy mum lmao.
I am really fed up of constantly being sick, everytime I eat I am sick, it's making me feel really weak. Finally gave in and spoke to my GP who has gien me anti sickness tablets - not that they are doing much good :(

Monday, 18 August 2008

Booking In App & Happy Birthday

St Thomas' Appointment Today
5 days Till Re Scan
37 days Til 12 Week Scan.

My booking in appointment went well, it was just with the midwife and now I have to have a medical booking in as well due to the APS and 3 previous sections and coz of Georgie as well. *sigh* I wish that I could be one of these women who is able to sail through pregnancy without a care in the world, but once you have had a loss or losses you are never the same again, every little twinge sends you into blind panic and rushing to the bathroom to check for blood. I know when and if pipkin arrives I will be 100 times worse, the fear is always there even now with Brad and Caitie I am terrified that something is going to happen to them.

They now do things diffrent as to when I had Caitie, even though i am RH- they didn't give me the anti d until after she was born and she was tested and was RH+ now they give it at 29 weeks regardless so something else to look fw to another bloody injection. Oh well if it keeps Pipkin safe then it's worth it.

We have changed our minds on a boy's name we, we'll Stu went off the name we both liked :( now we can't find one we agree on any idea's anyone? Girls name is sorted now I think we both love this name well i like the long version Stu likes the shorted version so we are sorted i think but have to choose middle names, we will see on that one i have an idea but not sure stu will go for it.

I have my St Thomas' appointment this afternoon yuck not looking fw to it as I know they will want to take yet more blood from me I hate needles! Hopefully they will keep to their word and give me a scan I really need reasring that everything is alright in there. Hopefully be back Later with an update.

The sickness has kicked in proper now. I am constantly being sick all the time even a cup of tea makes me throw up. I am so tired all of the time coz of the being sick constantly. I'm even having to get up in the night to be sick. All sorts of things set me off smells, the thought of food anything it's driving me bonkers! I do know that it will be worth it in the end.

Lastly I wasted to wish 2 very special little angels a happy birthday.

1st Jenna - I know I am late with wishing you a happy birthday sweetheart, I hope you had a fantastic party up in heaven with all your heavenly friends, I hope that your mommy Lorri daddy and sister Kelley were able to feel your kisses on the wind xoxoxox

2nd Hannah - Happy birthday for today sweetheart. I hope that you are having a fantastic party in heven getting into all sorts of mischief up there. I hope that your mummy Amanda Daddy Carl, brothers Matt, Adam, Lewis, Christopher and Oliver are able to feel the kisses blown on the wind for them.

Tuesday, 12 August 2008

Keeping Positive with dates to aim for

I have decided to keep a note at the top of each post how many days I have till appointments.. I am hoping that this will help to keep me focused and positive,

3 days till booking appointment at local hospital
6 days till APS appointment at St Thomas'
10 Days till re-scan
43 Days till 12 week Scan

Worried

I ended up in the ER on sunday night . Been having a lot of pain on my left side and am unable to keep any thing down. The Dr ruled out an eptopic thank goodness but I have to go to the early pregnany unit yesterday to double check and have a scan. It could be a number of things a cyst on my overy I had several with my last pg with Bubbles, My section scar is hurting like hell, I have had 3 sections already and had some problems with the last one, Old scar tissue streaching from the sections, who knows? They wanted to keep me in but after managing to keep a cup of water down with lots of struggling to keep it down they let me go home, lol more so as I had my 2 little monsters with me, Bradder's ADHD was causing a bit of a problem as it was midnight and I couldn't medicate him at that time or he would have been up all night! They did some blood tests and Dr said something about my liver function not quite being what it should be but that could be due to the Claxine that I am on.

The scan went wellish - they saw a gestational sack and yoke in the place it should have been which is messuring right for my dates but they would not say that this is a viable pregnancy due to not seeing pipkin I know it's really early but it's so scarey I had to have early scan's with Bubbles and we saw a hb at 5+4 with her. I have to go back on 22nd to have another scan I will be 7 weeks - They couldn't see any cysts thank goodness the one i had with Bubbles ended up the size of a orange. Still not sure what is causing the pain but at least it's not an eptopic. It just could be the scaring I have from the previous sections causing it all - My section with Bubbles was a nightmare it took them 45 mins to get her out of me, the surgon said that I was butured from my section with Georgie, my bladder was attached to my womb and they had to free it all before they could do anything. The section for pipkin will not be stright forward they said after looking through all my notes yesterday. The liver function one of the results was a little high but nothing to worry about too much Yet they said that I will have to have more blood tests to keep an eye on it. I have my booking in appointment on friday so they will test it again then, so still no further with that really, but again have said that it could be due to the claxine/heprin that I have to inject, my clotting was normal which is a relief.

Watching Stu's face during the scan was amazing, he had a silly grin all over it, I'm so glad that he is so happy, after the scan he keept grinning at me "We're having a baby" I so wish I could have his optimisum. Iam scared silly that when we go back there will be nothing there the sack will be empty.

Tuesday, 5 August 2008

Scan News

I was just about to walk out the door this morning to take Caitie to pre-school when the phone rang, I wasn't going to answer it but something made me, It was my consultant's sectary, they have booked me in to see her on 18th August and hopefully I will have my scan then the secretary wasn't too sure but he did say he believes that the scan will happen as Dr Hunt was talking about it so I guess we will see what happens then. Stu has said tho that if I don't get the scan then he will pay for one for us. I have also had my 12 week scan through the post at the local hospital 24th September, plus my booking in appointment at the local hospital I asked The sectary what I should do about the booking appointment and he said to go as they should then pull me over to St Thomas’s depending on what Dr Hunt wants to do on the 18th So my booking is on the 15th.So my appointments look like this at the moment - 15th August Booking at local hospital with midwife and local consultant 18th August appointment with APS consultant and U/S hopefully! 12 week scan 24th September.

I can't believe how tired and ill I feel at the moment. I keep crying at the silliest things, My section scar is hurting like crazy. All my clothes feel really tight I’ve been wearing Df’s joggers and he wants em back lol so I brought a couple of pairs of leggings in the next size up from my current size and they are so comfy Also saw a sale in a maternity section of one of my fav shops so brought 4 lovely tops out of there, for around $40/£20. We have also been really naughty and been looking at prams again today and think we have finally decided on one we both like. :)

I will try and get back tom to post about the last few days but we will se I am so tired ALL of the time within 20 mins of getting up I want to go back to bed

xox Nicki xox

Saturday, 2 August 2008

Finaly

I finally got a kind of answer yesterday. Called my consultant and her secateary has said that she is away til monday but will be getting back to me on Monday - explained to him about the issues I have with getting the 5-8 week scan done and they are going to try and sort it out so I have one somewhere either the local hospital or St Thomas' on the 11th August : I have a date to reach for now. My 12 week scan at the local hospital came through this morning for the 24th of September it seems ages away.

Bradders won some tickets for Charlton his fav football team - he has a season ticket but this is a friendly game, So I am taking him to see them this afternoon. The joy not a big football fan but if it makes him happy then I'll go.

Will be back later hopefully with and update and photo's